But over the years, those are defects that I haven't been able to correct.
So if I ever apologize to someone, it'd probably be just to clean off my bad karma, and not because I'm actually sorry. Guess it all comes back to be being a piece of shit person either way.
Yet sometimes, I feel, I am genuinely sorry. So sorry that I can't bring myself to bother these people with apologies that won't fix anything.
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This is me, coming back to this journal just to let go of my angst.